The Sadist Whisperer
An Intimate Terrorist Love Story
By Mack McColl
COPYRIGHT 2023
NOTHING IN THIS WORK OF FICTION HAPPENED TO ANYONE. IT'S FICTION TO THE GUTS AND CORE. OKAY IT SO HAPPENS THE AUTHOR WATCHED A BUNCH OF YOUTUBE VIDEOS ABOUT NARCISSISM AND THIS NOVEL HAPPENED.
Chapter 1: So Tell Me About Your Narcissist
YOUTUBE Video Begins
"So tell me about your narcissist."
"I think I was dealing with a Dark Triad Borderline Personality and Reactive Attachment Disorder The reason I think so is because she said so. Then I found out they are people with co-morbidities such as Sadistic Personality Disorder, and other aspects of Dark Triad Personality disorder. She had a lot of murderous traits, physical violence, and belligerence. After experiences over an extended length of time, I believe I was targeted by sadistic intimate terrorist.”
“Say what?”
“She said several times she was diagnosed with Reactive Attachment Disorder, and said once she was diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder. The initial confession was a benign disclosure, the ensuing disclosures came under stress, episodes were uncontrollable, as if I was participating in epilepsy. There was a drug missing when we met. Lamotragene. Apparently she was in treatment at a place called the Tavistock Institute.”
“In England?”
"That's where she's from. Believe it or not, the sadist was a relief from the world I inhabited, even if it was 10 years of her using me for target practice, plunking the bell with large rounds, shotgun blasts. You never hear the shot slamming into the bell. Just the bellowing to be heard.”
“It is a matter of trust.”
“It's more about restraint in every direction. The shame - - “
“Most people have shame in every direction. Is the primary goal to understand or be understood?”
"To survive. For certain it is a question of survival. The promiscuity in a relationship was something I never heard of outside tabloid news, and an occasional asshole friend, or talk of a person you cannot escape such as an employer. What appears to be happening to her is so profoundly out of order that, if it was me doing it, I would see a doctor.”
“And you would need to.”
"But I concur with your analysis, Doctor. I believe a few observations might help. False pretense is a powerful tool in certain hands, but false pretense is exhausting to maintain. One way to maintain false pretense is to inflict Intimate Terror. The point of Intimate Terrorism is to create fear so intense, false pretense is the acceptable alternative. To survive the fear I was embracing the lie.”
"If this is a diagnosed Borderline Personality Disorder with diagnosed Reactive Attachment Disorder and a host of other co-morbidities, the term False Pretense doesn't begin to describe it.”
“I use the term False Pretense as a legal term.”
“Each break with reality will be planned, timed, normal to perfection, including when it could be the most frightening real-time psychotic break from reality in the same minute as normal is fully on display. The chaos will be targeted. It will be planned. It will be practised. It will be lethal. The intention to inflict maximum damage will be primary. This will be the aim to obtain sadistic joy, satisfaction. Why?”
“The break with reality averts danger. Primarily the danger of discovery while in a process of individuating. This causes frustration.."
"Why do those who use false pretense blur the lines of legal and illegal acts?”
“They don't distinguish between legitimate and illegitimate because they have no emotional attachment to outcomes. It's whatever serves their immediate sense of security and entitlement and perhaps a form of satisfaction obtained from inflicting pain and no other way.”
“I discovered too late how she practiced Intimate Terror to hide her tracks.”
"The Dark Triad with co-morbidities produces people who take extraordinary risks, and these are basically escapes from greater risks created somewhere else, with someone else. It's a life on the run like a fugitive, they are fleeing the person who betrayed them, which is the self they inflicted on another.
“The fact is, Intimate Terrorist Narcissists with co-morbidities leave a trail of human wreckage, and are considered by members of the legal system to be a criminal danger to society. The abilities to change false pretense make them practically undetectable, therefore it is rare to see them out in the open, if ever, it's occasionally in a criminal court. Thank you for your input. Can you tell me, where did you acquire your experience?"
"Yes, Doctor. I did a ten year isolation with a female Intimate Terrorist. I made a lot of notes. Some of it is on the public record in court transcripts, affidavits, and long letters to social workers, counsellors, police investigators, and other social science experts in Canada's most western province."
"Extensive learning experience. What is your conclusion?"
“It is safer to lie on a beach in a Tsunami than to isolate with an Intimate Terrorist and their psychopathic traits and disorders and co-morbidities. As a result of surviving, I am now the Sadist Whisperer.”
YOUTUBE Video Ends
End Chapter One
